Sin as Betrayal of Christ

“Jesus announces to the Apostles that one of them will betray Him. They do not doubt the Master’s word; they do not cry out: ‘Master it is impossible!’ But they become sad and say one after the other: ‘Is it I?’ The experience of my own falls should make me very humble. I can never exclude the possibility of a new offense. I should ask ‘Am I going to betray again? Am I the next traitor?’ ‘Who will you give me, and I will deliver Him unto you?’ To Satan I repeat the question which Judas asks the priests: ‘What pleasure will you give me? If you grant me this or that, I will deliver Him unto you…’ Perhaps I mumble this suggestion with my eyes turned away, or perhaps by washing my hands, but not without feeling qualms of conscience. But all the same, I will deliver Him…” (A Monk of the Eastern Church, Jesus: A Dialogue with the Savior, pgs. 103-104)