“For a holy and disciplined spirit will flee from deceit, and will leave foolish thoughts behind…” (Wisdom of Solomon 1:5)
There is a bit of wisdom that I’ve seen even on a bumper sticker which says: “Don’t Believe Everything You Think“. One can find similar warnings in Orthodox spiritual literature where one’s constant buzz of thoughts are sometimes compared to a swarm of bees, or worse, a swarm of flies (and we know what attracts flies!). Or this from Sirach – “The heart of a fool is like a cart wheel, and his thoughts like a turning axle” (33:5). Our minds are always busy – always turning, but the spiritual literature says we can learn to discern our own thoughts better by slowly, gently ignoring some of them until we are able to hear another voice – that of God. Especially if we have allowed God’s Word to enter into our hearts and minds through attending liturgical services, reading scripture and through prayer. Fr. Meletios Webber writes:
“For those who do not have access to spiritual direction, please allow me to attempt to describe such an exercise in staying present (and avoiding the pitfalls of ego-boosting) in spiritually neutral terms. It goes something like this:
Stop listening to your thoughts–not the thoughts you have, but the thoughts that have you. They have nothing beneficial to offer you, and besides you have heard them all before. Brush them aside, and gently continue to brush them aside. Beyond their clamor and din there is available to you a level of greater awareness–a place of love, joy, peace, and compassion. At first, it is difficult to “hear” it (since it is expressed in silence) but with practice you will start recognize its voice, and a deeper state of presence will be yours.” (“When Taking Cover Is Not Enough”, In Communion, p. 14).
Spiritual directors warn that if we only read those passages of Scripture which we like or agree with, then we aren’t listening to God but are only listening to ourselves. If we read the Scriptures through our political bent, we shaped the Scriptures into a text that agrees with us. It is much harder to allow the Scriptures to speak to us and far easier for us to read into them what we want them to say. So the Lord Jesus teaches:
“You search the scriptures, because you think that in them you have eternal life; and it is they that bear witness to me; yet you refuse to come to me that you may have life.” (John 5:39-40)
People who have memorized a text and repeat it often, sometimes don’t even notice when the written text has been changed, even when it is right in front of them. They are not reading the text, but rather saying what their mind has already believed the text to say. Sometimes they literally can’t even see the change in the text because their brain expects the text to say what it has memorized. So the person has to slow down their mind, and actually pay attention to the text which is before them. Sometimes they stumble over the words, sometimes the different words appear and they suddenly realize what they are saying is different than the text before their eyes and they feel the cognitive dissonance as they say one thing but read something different. Sometimes they have to stop and actually read the printed words carefully and intentionally. That is the experience that Fr Webber is describing: how it is necessary at times to slow our thinking down and filter some of the thoughts so that we can actually hear that voice from God who speaks to us but who we drown out with all the other things to which we want to pay attention.
We might consider the experience of the Holy Prophet Elijah who didn’t find God in the explosion winds, earthquake or fire, and all the thoughts that resulted from them. Rather, only when all else had been cleared from his mind did Elijah hear the “still small voice” which was God speaking to him.
And behold, the LORD passed by, and a great and strong wind rent the mountains, and broke in pieces the rocks before the LORD, but the LORD was not in the wind; and after the wind an earthquake, but the LORD was not in the earthquake; and after the earthquake a fire, but the LORD was not in the fire; and after the fire a still small voice. And when Elijah heard it, he wrapped his face in his mantle and went out and stood at the entrance of the cave. (1 Kings 19:11-13)